Intan payung

Orang kata kita serupa

Bila tengok awak

Saya nampak diri saya

Macam biasan saya di waktu kecil

Saya cuba kutip balik memori itu

Waktu kecil seusia awak

Tapi mustahil lah sebab saya bukan genius

Kapasiti memori saya masa seusia awak kecil sangat

Namun mujur ada gambar

Cakap pasal gambar

Gambar awak dan abang awak belum lagi dicetak

Saya harap memori tu tak hilang

Sebab bila awak seusia saya nanti

Mungkin masa tu

Awak akan rasa apa yang saya rasa sekarang

Saya harap saya sempat cetak memori itu untuk awak

Agar nanti awak nampak persamaan antara kita 

Darah yang mengalir antara kita

Berkongsi ciri-ciri yang sama

Moga pabila ia dicincang...

Masih kekal mengalir laju

Awaklah intan

Dan moga menjadi payung syurga saya.

First Car

It has been 10 years since first I learn how to drive.
I learn to drive at this Chinese Uncle ( I can't recall his name ) driving school.
Brought up in a cowboy town ( but now has been chanted by most Malaysian ) you will end up meeting your friends from the same schools.
Most me and childhood friends learn to drive with the Uncle. Or can I say he owns the only driving school in Ghombau at that time.

It took me twice to get my license. I screwed up the first time while on the road. Got license but I still didn't drive mom's car. Just after I came back from a foster child program at Jitra organized by UiTM Rakan Muda, I became enthusiast in driving. Mom's didn't know that I drove the family I stayed in' car around Jitra. My first and real time driving.

I knocked my mom's kancil on my way fetching my dad from workshop. Haha. No bad injury. But my lil bro   had a ' Flowerhorn' bump on his head. Then, dad allowed me to use his Proton Saga while doing practical thingy. Whoaaa..i felt like a female racer driving that machine.

Got married then i drove the kereta kebal. After a few issues with the stupid owner I decided to buy my first car. Lil white viva. That's all I could afford by that time with lil creature I was carrying inside. Thick and thin, sweet and sour we have been together.

With that small car, I brought the lil baby home. With that car, I visited my husband in training along with my son. First time I drove to KL with that car. Back and forth to my parents and PIL. Trips to Malacca. A trip to Cameron Highlands with another bump in tummy. So proud that you can made it!

Yesterday after few arguments I let my first ever car for rent. I leave it to a car rental company.
I know silly me who cried over a car. I have memories with it. It's hard not to feel sad about it because I got it when I was in the most difficult moments in my life.

I cheer every single time i ride on you. It's not that I don't need you anymore. But, I decide to make some investment and find you are fit for it. Hope you are doing fine there. And they treat you nicely. I'll see you soon, my first car.

p.s : Don't laugh. I just being me...

Fobia

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Rasa-rasanya semua orang ada fobia masing-masing
Macam aku.

Aku fobia gelap. Bilik tidur lampu tidur sentiasa terpasang malamnya. Kalau malamnya suami aku takde rumah even anak-anak aku ada pun rumah aku terang benderang. Kenapa? Entah..momokan zaman sekolah kot.

Lagi satu aku fobia dengan orang ramai. Aku tak suka berdepan dengan orang ramai baik buat presentation depan kawan sekelas, public speaking, story telling, nasyid, masuk kuiz peringkat sekolah/daerah, masuk kejohanan sukan. Tapi semua yang aku sebut tu aku buat. Walaupun fobia berhadapan dengan orang ramai, dengan tangan freeze, shaking, suara vibrate, jantung laju tapi once aku start dia slowly ease. Yang ni aku rasa ramai macam ni. Cuma sekarang ni aku kena start join tournament. Dan aku tengah find out the strength nak overcome fobia aku.

Above all that tak boleh lawan fobia aku dengan episiotomi. Cukup la dengan apa yang aku sementara waktu ni. Tapi kalau ditakdirkan Allah bertambah tu, aku terima.

Nak tau how worst korang punya fobia, korang boleh refer sini.

The Duo

Buah hati pengarang jantung saya dan suami

Perangai berbeza

Si abang masa seusia adik sekarang

Suka berkongsi dan tak kisah kalau sesiapa usik mainan/makanan dia

Si adik sekarang jenis mempertahankan barang dia 

Kalau nak barang orang lain sedaya upaya dia nak jugak

Si adik lebih independent 

Si abang manja lebih

Tapi si abang dulu kalau ditepuk-tepuk, didodoi sambil beralun lembut mau gak tidur...

Si adik kena 'bergantung' baru lelap

Itupun gaya dia nak tidur tu tah berapa kali berkalih

Itulah anak-anak

Lain-lain pe'el nya...

Mama korang ni kadang-kadang(ke biasanya?) hilang kewarasannya...

Tapi at the end, kesal pulak...

I'm struggling to be a better mom

Nak lari daripada cara mama korang dididik dulu

Sometimes I forget the promise

But, I'll make sure my hugs and kisses wipe the tears away.

Till death do us. Insha Allah.

Hayfa dan hobinya

Ni memang kegemaran dia. Style baca tu yang tak tahan tu. memang gaya maknya masa membaca la. Moga-moga hobi awak ni kekal la ye sayang. Daripada membaca la kita dapat bina jati diri kita.