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Saturday, July 31, 2010

saya nak berlomo

erks...please don't me wrong
i mean it in a good way
saya nak ber lomografi...
sejak dari sekolah menengah lagi berangan, tapi dulu pun elaun mak bagi ciput pastu dok nun ceruk ulu peghok sane. simpan je la angan2 tu. tetibe skrg ni terjumpa balik kawan lama dan tengok dia ada blog pasal lomo. check it out here. angan2 tu cam timbul balik. tapi banyak benda kena consider pulak
i told my husband that i want to own at least one analogue camera so that i can carry it anywhere within my my bag without worrying about it's sensitivity, what if it crashes down...sebab hari tu digi cam saya baru hantar gi repair balik sebab lens problem. huh...see...gambar yang dekat 600 keping pun tak pernah bercuci..dok tengok dalam pc je la...so saya rase kalau ada analogue tu at least sure la kena g hantar cuci kan kalau nak tengok gambar nye ye tak? tapi nanti la dulu. sooo much thingamabob to consider tambah2 nak pose then raye nih.

sesiapa yang berminat leh la beli online kat kedai ni.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Jom Buat Color Blind Test


My dirty little secret



1. i am a hugggeeee fan of LeoDi and Titanic. Can't remember how many times i  watch the movie but every time i watch it i wil cry...
2. i hate my current job (very much)
3. i have A MALE best friend 
4. can't sleep without my husband (if i'm away for a course ) and will cry each night without my son...



to be cont...

Aku ingatkan aku dah buta HTML

Macam apetahpunye post ek
Tadi disebabkan background lama yang aku justclikok nyer template tu da didelete kan dari site aku pakai je la mane yang blogger offer. tapi cam align header tak besh jer...try la bukak balik page source dia...walaupun da lama tinggal sains komputer ni tapi i'm still in love dengan internet.apa-apa je la. So html aku still la boleh diharapkan lagi walaupun da bertaun tak hapdet. Hahaha...setakat nak center jer pon..Tu pon nak kecoh. Nak masuk backgroun sendiri nanti la...Nak wat coding lain2 terasa cam da tua benor...woi...baru anak sorang and ade lagi 5 tahun nak bertukar angka k..hahahahah...Tengokla kalau rajin and incik abang dapat memanjakan saya dengan APPLE yang tak boleh dimakan sebijik je...confirm aku rajin copy lagu/movie/wat coding balik. hahahah...

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Curse could cure???

Huhuhuhu
Agree!!! At least it can cure the anger...
Lately naik kereta dengan husband terutama selepas dia pick up saya petang-petang biasalah jam-packed kat depan KM Plaza tu...and we all well-known dengan sikap tak berapa berhemahnya di jalan raya. Setiap kali ada pemandu lain yang buat silap dia mesti curse orang tu. Not that i didn't do it...bahkan lagi teruk kot daripada dia tetapi saya cuba untuk berubah supaya cut on the curse. Should not curse sebab takut nanti kot Hariz ada sekali dan dia akan mula belajar perkataan-perkataan yang tak patut. Normally, both us are well-behave kalau Hariz ada. (aiks...mak pak lak yang baik kalau anak ada ek...).
So, everytime incik abang saya tu cakap */*^&*%^%$%^ tu saya pun menjeling...
"Watch your mouth..watch it dear...."
Mungkin aku belajar daripada kesilapan seseorang dan taknak Hariz melalui fasa yang sama.Well, kid nowadays learn from us...we have to make sure (think before we act, talk and etc.) every single thing we do...
Sound tough aight? But it's for their future...

Last but not least, just

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Just recovered but i guess not fully

Ari isnin petang aritu dekat nak balik dalam kol 4 camtu la tetiba aku rasa cam menggigil sgt... nak kata sejuk sgt air cond cam bese je. Pashmina yang ada pun x dpt menahan so i txted my MIB cakap cam nak demam and i'm shivered to death (Rase cam je la k). Aku tahan gak...balut ngan pashmina pi punch card tepat kol 5 and jalan kaki ke tempat bas aku tunggu. Huhu..sangap sangat sebab cam rase nak pitam pun ade. Naik bas ingatkan da berkurang sebab ade la kena panas sket td tapi...huhuhu..gigil lagi. Naseb baik akak sebelah tu cuti kalau tak mau die bising aku still tak g klinik ngan keadaan aku camni.45 minit dlm bas rase cam huhuhu....nanges jek rasa sebab tak tahan sgt sejooook. Masa ni baru la teringat....rase cam nak mati wooo...teringat muka Hariz...wat aku nanges jek..leh bapaknye jaga nanti. Bukan ape..aku teringat cite aku dalam post ni.
Akak tu mula2 demam la...pastu berlarutan...aku terfikir adakah aku akan menerimanya macam itu?
Aku redha dengan ketentuan itu tapi orang sekitar aku?
Mampukah? Aku sendiri rase cam tak mampu nak tinggalkan anak ku seorang itu...

Tapi Alhamdulillah, isnin petang sampai je Seremban aku gi klinik gak (kerajaan jek)
Sume ok...demam bese tapi kalau berlarutan gak sampai 4 hari kena buat check up

Syukur sangat2 kerana diberi kesempatan untuk bersama yang tersayang.
Tapi arini aku rasa macam ak berapa sihat lagi la....
Rase sejok balik ang pening sangat2..adeh!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Kebuntuan

Aku buntu...
Hidupku celaru
Malam tidurku tak tentu

Adakah benar itu aku
Yang sanggup membantu
Walau ku tahu ku tak mampu

Temanku
Ku pegang janjimu
Dalam hanya seminggu

Maafkan aku

Friday, July 23, 2010

Bila kawan pinjam duit


Adalah seorang kawan saya ni. Agak rapat dengan dia. Walaupun hanya berhubung melalui internet je sekarang tapi kami masih rapat. Baru-baru ni dia mintak tolong saya. Nak pinjam sesuatu.. Sebab anak nak masuk belajar. Bab-bab pendidikan ni memang saya agak cepat kasihan. Lagipun dia hanya mintak tempoh seminggu je. It's quite amount for someone yang gaji kecik macam saya. Tak tau kenapa tapi saya boleh percayakan dia. Hurmmm...ada pakai pape ke? Tapi xpela...die ada bagi saya contact orang2 yang sepatutnya kalau2 apa2 jadi kat dia. So nanti since dia cakap pinjam means hutang so saya kena la tuntut kan? Bukan la kata saya kedekut...tapi kalau saya hidup senang lenang aset melambak takpe. Saya halalkan je. Tapi keadaan semasa tak memampukan saya berbuat demikian. So harap dia faham yang saya hanya meminjamkan sahaja.


Kenapa la nak besar2kan isu ni kan? bukan apa..dulu saya pernah tersilap. bagi pinjam pada orang yang saya sangka die ikhlas menyayangi saya (confirm2 ex boy kan) rupanye die lesap bersama orang lain...takpela...tapi saya da niat pinjamkan die kan...so x salah saya tuntut in hereafter kan?


To you friend, i trust u...and please don't take my trust in you for granted...
Hari ni hari awak susah esok lusa mane tau hari saya yang mendung pulak kan?
Boleh lah payungkan saya pulak k

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Listen to these,mates

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. 
I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. 

It doesn't interest me how old you are. 
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. 

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. 
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human. 

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. 
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithlessand therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. 
I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children. 

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. 
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. 

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. 
I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. 

July 20, 1985

July 20, 1985РThe main ship wreck site of the Spanish galleon Nuestra Se̱ora de Atocha (which sank in 1622) is found 40 miles off the coast of Key West, Florida by treasure hunters who begin to excavate $400 million in coins and silver and his birthday. Just can't get the date out off my head. Maybe it's my only way to commemorate all the sweet thing we'd shared. Wish you happy and healthy wherever you are. Happy 25th birthday!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Siapa yang aku patut dengar ney???

i'm in dilemma.
aku tak tau la mane satu nak dengar...
Mr House ke
or mem aku ney...they are my boss
Mr House tu direct ngan aku
but mem aku tu have no idea dengan issue yang dia patut tahu ni
lagi pening...the department yang Mr House aku dealing with ni pulak direct call aku mintak prompt action
aku minta opinion mem aku
dia boleh cakap "u better ask Mr House la"
adeh...bewak..bewak...
aku tersepit dols
mau nye aku el next moday
el kang, kena menjawab ngan mem lagi
buat ikut suka pala abah aku kang
orang kate cam pandai lak
x suke la
jd coolie ni
abg, aku nak benti keje la
baik jadi WAHM...

Friday, July 16, 2010

H Latest Development

 Taken after 3 day he's having diarrhea. A treat to Jbtn. Perkhidmatan Haiwan & Veterinar and having lempeng @ nearest stall...

At this age, he already know to point at what does he wants and taking him out shopping is a real challenge. But so far he behaves very well unless he's soo sleepy or it's on his nappy time we are taking him out. Sorry dude. Spending the weekend with him is joyful but sometimes I feel annoying and i tend to whine and scream at him as I can't leave him alone in the hall whilst my half ain't at home. 


Sometimes, i take a moment to remind myself that he's through a phase. And i understand him well that he's afraid of losing me. I did left him for a compulsory course which took place in Terengganu...i spent almost 2 weeks while he's only 9 months. And then a week at Nilai ( closer to my place and every 2 days i came back home ).

However it is, it's a blissful having him around! 

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Demimu kawan dan bola...


Aku taklah tengok sangat bola tahun ni
Tak macam dulu time kat sekolah or dekat U
I have family now to take care
Tidurkan anak malam-malam
Esoknya nak bangun pagi pergi kerja
Cuma malam tadi aku still tidur lena dengan hati membara
Macamlah kat rumah takde tv, besar lagi
Walaupun takde astro but tv yang ada pun ada gak yang siarkan live gak kan
Dari kau nak berembun bagai kat luar tu
Masa untuk kawan...yes sentiasa ada..urgent macam mane pun sanngup walaupun takde la penting mane pun
Tapi bile kite susah...sape kawan kau yang penah datang tolong
Oh, maybe sebab terhutang budi ngan kawan sorang ni sebab mase aku takde lame sebab kursus aritu and kebetulan Hariz demam teruk and kawan tu ada and tolong...yang dia duduk berhari2 kat rumah tu langsung kau tak bagitau aku..it's my house jugak k...i shoud have been informed k
I won't weep..i won't shed any tears anymore
For the sake of Hariz...aku telan la sume ni
Entah la Diary, aku tak tau nak luahkan pada siapa lagi
Luckily i still have you and Hariz...Can't wait to see him...only him can make my day
and Him whom i shall devoted the most...

Friday, July 2, 2010

Maher Zain ( again )


Ni kali kedua aku post pasal mamat turki ni kot
Aku rasa dah beratus kali kot aku dengar lagu dia.
Banyak lagu-lagu evergreen english aku buang da daripada OC aku nih.
Sesape yang nak lagu2 dia format mp3 boleh la message saya.
Jangan risau ... free je...
Link ke video die sila cek kat post saya sebelum ni k.

Urine infection

30 Jun 2010, 9.15 PM, Rumah Aku

Nak siapkan Hariz untuk masuk tido
Changes his dispo ( faeces dia still belum normal lagi), tukar ke PJ
Masa nak tukar DD(dispo diaper) dia tu aku perasan ada stain..
Apa pulak kali ni...kencing kotorkah Hariz?
Aduhai sayang ku
Well, aku ni walaupun tak dapat jadi berangan doktor sudah menyiapkan ilmu di dada tentang kesihatan putera ku ini
Walaupun aku ni ummi(buta) sket, kejahilan masih banyak untuk diperbaiki tapi bab2 kesihatan dia aku tak ambil enteng
Luckily sekarang ni sume di hujung jari takpun call je JM yang selalu check up Hariz tu...hehehe
Disebabkan dia kena diarrhea baru2 ni sikit sebanyak menjangkiti kencingnya juga...

Aku pun tak berape risau sebab die pun tak merengek sangat. Merengek manja nak berkepit tu je la.

Takpe sayang...awak pun bagi kerjasama teramat bagus bila ummi tengok awak banyak minum air kosong...Insha Allah cam ada tokoh nak sambung cita2 ummi nak jadi doktor yang tak kesampaian.

Alhamdulillah...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Rent a toy???

Aku baru terjumpa rentatoy.com ni. Cambest jer...
Ye la aku kan sekarang pale hotak dok sibuk mainan ape la yang seswai utk menjana minda, kemahiran and whatsoever anak ku ni...so benda2 macam ni buat aku terover excited. ye tiap2 bulan mesti ada parcel sampai rumah. berbulu je MIB tengok. tapi sume second hand la. nak beli yang baru yang berbrand2 tu memang aku diluar kemampuan aku. lagi satu aku sangat kisah k kalau mainan baru then ye lah baru setahun mestila jenis nak hempas je barang2 tu tambah2 lelaki konon nak uji daya ketahanan la tu...test power orang kata...

Berbaloi ke kalau rent? Jap wat kira2 dulu...tapi ni anak baru sorang. Next2 anak nanti takkan nak rent jugak....
Hurmm...apa cadangan mommies di luar sana ye?

Normal ke kalau...


  1. setiap satu jam kau pergi toilet (kalau kau mengandung aku faham sangatlah tapi kau kawen pon belum lagi)
  2. setiap kali kau pergi toilet, kau spend almost 30-40 minutes dalam tu. (takkan tiap-tiap hari kau cirit kot)
  3. dalam toilet tu kau mesti book toilet duduk tu. dah la tu je la satu-satunya toilet duduk. tak kesian ke dengan orang-orang yang tetiba cirit aritu tak naya je nak mencangkung lama2. orang2 mengandung lagi. and yang baru abis tempoh pantang tu terutama yang ada post trauma cam aku dulu...hahah
  4. kau masuk ofis and duduk ngadap pc tu tanpa buat apa sambil merenung monitor lama2
  5. kau takde keje tapi senarai tugas kau berjela2
  6. da keje dekat 10 tahun  tapi tak tau nak cocok pen drive kat mane kalu port xde kat depan tu. (adoi...ni yang paling aku tensen)
  7. suke cakap ( da la slow nak mati ) then tetiba gelak sorang
  8. ada orang cakap kau gosok satu pasang baju kurung dekat 2 jam...kain apakah itu? even sutera aku pun aku rase it took less than 15 mins.
  9. name post ko pun secretary tapi surat pun tak reti nak draft (erks...)
  10. telefon orang lain(orang tu takde kat tempat) and kadang2 even telefon kau berbunyi pun kau xnak angkat sedangkan kau je yang ada kat situ. Pekak (aku yg ade hearing loss ni pon leh dgr lagi) ke hape ko ni?

    An honest confession...


    Aku ada sedikit HEARING LOSS!

    That's the truth. Berkira-kira aku nak buat post ni ke tak tapi aku rasa some of my friends will notice it.
    Benda ni dah la...sejak di sekolah rendah lagi..
    Aku ada la undergone several test masa tu
    And, the result didn't turn out well
    Aku kemungkinan ada defect ni sejak baby kot...
    Maybe mase tu kuku panjang sangat and ter'korek' lebih sket dalam telinga tu
    Aku pun tak berape hengat la...Result test tu pun tah mane mak kau letak tah
    And recently last year kot...ke awal2 tahun ni tah
    Aku gi check up lagi sekali kat ENT
    Sebab aku rase macam berdengung2 sangat sampai aku tak boleh dengar apa org cakap satu hari tu
    i ran the test again
    Resultnya bile tiba derang set tu pitch yang high wave, slow and nyaring tu aku xleh dengar so button tu aku tak press la
    Test dia seingat aku ada 2 ke 3 step tah
    Hi pitch, low pitch and ape tah satu lg...klu dengar aku satu punat yang di connect direct dengan dia nyer machine tu ...then computer akan calculate the result
    I fail bab tu
    And the examiner cakap aku kemungkinan perlukan hearing aid..she means sooner 
    It's getting more severe due to aging
    Well, i accept it and get used to it

    So, kepada kengkawan..
    Kalau bila anda bercakap dengan saya and saya jawab "Apa?" and you have to repeat it over and over
    Maafkan saya...Itu kekurangan saya...
    That's why i prefer to chat online rather than talk on the phone/face2face
    Tapi saya masih boleh dengar lagi...cuma kalau yang memang style cakap perlahan tu saya minta maaf la kalau saya minta ulang berkali2.



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